Fork in the Road? I Don't Even See the Road!

It has been a while hasn't it?  Well things are pretty much moving on at the same pace they were before.  Amanda and I are still dating (a month as of tomorrow) so I guess I haven't messed that up yet.  I never get tired of being with her.  Even tho we have started telling the same stories over and over, they still make us laugh every time.  We finally sold off my trailer in Ames.  Today I called to take my name off everything and it hit me that I no longer have any connection to Ames whatsoever... oh darn :P  I stopped liking Ames even well before I moved out of it.  Guess that city and I weren't a good fit.

I find myself really missing Sioux City.  It's not the best city in the world, but it sure beats the hell out of Mason.  Sioux City isn't the greatest city on Earth, but it at least has a Barnes and Noble for pete's sake.  My job is taking its toll on me and I'm not earning enough money to make it worth it.  One of two things is going to happen, I'm either going to get a raise, or I'm going to get a new job.  Too bad that composer thing won't net me any real money.  My mom keeps pushing for me to be a welder.  She doesn't see that I'm not built for it, nor do I have any motivation to learn.  This is what it all boils down to:  With very few exceptions... I have no clue where I want my life to go.  What will I do?

Interesting

I've been having weird dreams lately... this blog post is not to talk about the dreams themselves (those go in my special private only I can see blog) but rather to discuss possible brainstorming ideas for writing or song writing.  Pawning my husband's jewelry comes to mind... as well as former employees/managers coming in and causing dramas.  Weird thing of note, in the case of the guy whose wife was writing a book, doing "research," and cheating on him, I remember siding with the wife.  Here is a situation, all I know about it for sure is that he is looking for his wife, his wife is pawning off all his stuff, his wife is also cheating on him with another man, and all I can think is "good for her you son of a b***"... this implies I've got some memories of a similar situation in which I sided with the girl, but why?

Writing Exercise

Write what ever pops into your mind for a whole five minutes, that's what my challenge is, i'm not going to worry about structure or anything like that instead what i'm going to do is just sit here and keep typing and typing and typing and typing this is supposed to get my creative juices flowing im going to stop worring about spelling and grammar or punctuation now so this will be just a true brainstorming excercise and lets see how do you make a good adversary youj make him a a mirror of the hero idk what to do my dewey piece is coming slowly idk what to do all my theory traning and i cant even make one simple little theme work out i wish i was in school i want to be a writer or a composer i wish ideas just gushed out of me like that one geyesr oh yeah old faithful you can set your clock by it but it is also the key to destroying the world then again what isnt these days even james bond didnt have this much crap to deal with so many ideas idk what to focus on and as a result none of them get developed fully its kinda sad ok one more minute this was hardly as free flowing as i had hoped if your reading this my most sincere apologies but this one is for the creative side which will sometimes feature all the meaningful ones but if thats all you want are the meaningful ones than you should check out my other blog the crazed nerd ok 5 minutes are up and i have nothing to show for it bye